Living in a two slimming coffee, a biguerlai tea and no rice life each day, super torture.. But the first thing I have to accomplish is to lose my “piggy” fats:) for me to be able to regain myself, need to have confidence outside of me.. Gradually, it's working.. I just have to be very patient because it will really take time.. And for the inside, I am pursuing again my top secret, novena every wed.. Maybe I should thank a friend for pushing me closer again to the one who can give me a total refreshment to my spirit, no matter what..
I’ve travelled the worthless road for so long.. I’ve been hurt by chances and choices and I’ve let them made my whole life come to its worst level.. I lost almost everything.. I thought I would be alright to see them gone but I wasn’t prepared to the side effects.. I isolated myself but wasn’t that brave to face the helplessness.. I never learned to get used to living on the grimness of being just an empty room.. And you know what was the hardest part, when the world is shaking the whole me, I have nothing to lean on..
Those days were already stored in the past.. With the help of the concerned people around me, I managed to fix my scrambled directions in life.. They helped me realize that it’s not too late to evolve from being bitter to better.. The secret, just be there.. Laugh with the rest of the world.. Cry with them.. Dream with them.. Dance with them.. Glow with them.. And grow with them.. After all, I am still alive and beautiful.. Haha:)
(Wish I could upload our dance number so you’ll see one of my shining moments) I think it was a break in my dancing career.. hehe:) And most of all, the kids saved me.. even in my flat tire, they believed in me.. they embraced me in my weakest.. their hearts loved me at my worst.. Now I am sure what I really wanted to reach for myself.. I just want to live my life this way, as a not so great grade one teacher and someone who is loved and needed unconditionally..
Life goes on in spite of our refusal to move on.. The clock still ticks.. Our age is performing the 4 F’s.. And I’ve learned that the best result is all up to us.. It depends on what is in our hearts..
I don’t know what is waiting on me ahead.. Whatever things I need to drop, I will dump.. Whoever people I need to lose, I will let go.. My journey may be bumpy at times but I am sure it will be a worthwhile drive being in control of what is the ride all about.. The search is over.. I am on the right way now.. TO GOD..
