We have laws that control human activities.. There is an equivalent penalty for doing something against what is enforced.. If you steal other’s property..If you kill somebody..If you do not obey signs in the community: DO NOT ENTER.. ONE WAY.. NO LOADING.. NO UNLOADING.. “NO LEFT TURN”.. (?)
As far as I am concern, my misbehavior is not violating any legal system.. I am still acting mischievously even at this age.. So? My childlike way is a manner of amusing myself from all the challenges I face.. It’s my way of preparing myself to different possibilities.. Indication of being ARTISTIC or AUTISTIC? whatever.. I will never hold myself in doing entertainment even if I would be put in disciplinary actions.. I am human.. Whatever things I do, it’s my own choice.. It is all up to me how I am going to be the way I am.. I hate restrictions.. I am not afraid to cross the boundaries of what is said to be the proper way, the nicest way or the thing they set you must do to be qualified in other people’s impression.. As long as I am not violating any human rights on my immaturity, I will always be fine staying this way..
It’s not a punitive decision to be yourself.. and to explore is vital for me.. I know I will not be sent to jail if this is my way of letting things widen my point of view.. This is just me.. I establish my dark sides visible, without harming anyone.. I exhibit annoying orientation, but I am considerate to the people around me.. I understand through my unpredictable moods .. I do not fear rejections.. I do not prioritize other’s opinions.. I do not approach circumstances with doubts.. I do not regret failures.. I dream big.. I risk all the chance.. I do not care being criticized.. I cry when I am almost or already on the edge.. I make the best out of the bad situations.. I am loud.. I am insensitive.. I am despicable.. I am horrible.. but I am just choosing to be real.. Because I am aware of the eyes that matter most, watching me every step of the way.. I play with a humble heart.. I offer my assistance without cost.. I take responsibility in providing comfort for the needy.. I accomplish something for being humane.. I acknowledge the attempt of some to love me.. I apologize for being inconvenient for them.. I appreciate their compassion.. I may go reckless for myself but I could move over to give way to others.. I forgive.. I forget.. I am always willing to convey learning..
When I reach the end of this road I am taking, I will be satisfied on the footprints I have left along the way.. There wouldn’t be grudges in spite of the unkind times.. I could be one of the most unfavorable persons you may know but I have never tried to mislead any of you on what I am not.. Sometimes, I may be less or broken, but I am never more than the genuine me or never been deceptive of my qualities.. I am only what I am.. not intentional.. just natural..
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