it took a long time before i felt i must forgive him for what he had done to me..
since i was a child, i've been living in hell..
i thought then he was the one who could change my lonely life..
because he knew what i was going through..
but he cheated me..
i never expected that he could do that to me..
and it hurted me badly..
that time, i felt really sorry for myself..
may sarili na nga akong mundo..
galit pa 'ko sa mundo..
i couldn't believe that the source of my strength
was the one who made me weak..
from the pain he caused me
he made me realized the things i never knew about this life..
i saw the reality..
that there are different people in this world..
and we cannot expect them to be what we wanted them to be to us..
or act according to what is right for us..
there are people who could go on in their lives
fooling and using anyone
just to be happy..
there are no assurance that they won't hurt us
no matter how much we tried to love them
the best way we can..
i always wanted to make him happy..
to give him the love i thought he needed..
i even tried to change myself to become the person fitted in his world..
but everything i did was wasted because he never give importance to my feelings..
akala nya siguro dahil bata ako, pwede nya ng paglaruan ang damdamin ko..
maybe i'm young.. but i could play life's hard games..
and he lost it..
he lost me..
but then i should thank him for teaching me to love unconditionally..
he made me stronger in spite of everything..
i became a better person because of everything..
i never regret that once in my life
he became a part of it..
i will just treat what happened to us
as a lesson
that all must experience..
to learn..
i will leave everything in the past..
it already passed..
this will be the last time i would open this thing..
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