the loses i had recently were really depressing but i tried to surpass them all by focusing on my responsibilities.. my heart maybe broken but my life is not empty..
looking back at the last five years of my life, i could say that god has blessed me so much..
-my family, though they are not perfect, i am proud and very thankful that i have them.. i am not a perfect daughter.. i've had some share of kabugakan sa buhay.. but i did my best to make them proud of me too.. at the end of each day, there is a home that comforts me through all of my struggles.. i am not afraid to lose, to fail, to be hurt because i have them who truly love me as me.. ano pa man ang mga pagkakamali ko o pagkukulang ko, alam ko na nandiyan pa din sila..
-my job, after a long struggle, i finally accepted my fate on this field.. hindi ko talaga ginustong maging teacher pero dito ko nakita 'yung sarili ko.. i am a fulfilled individual because of the kids who touch my life.. ang daming tao na hindi man direct na sinasabi sa 'kin, but they make me feel na mahalaga 'ko.. at alam ko na may halaga ako sa mundo dahil mahal ko ang trabaho ko..
-then the friends i've known.. the boyfriends i've had.. hindi ko naman idedeny na masakit ang loob ko ngayon kasi sobrang unfair ng mga nagyari.. iniisip ko na lang na siguro ganun talaga ang mga tao.. sobrang unfair.. well, people come and go.. that is the best realization everybody has to learn.. and that change is a good thing because we need it to grow..
i know god has perfect plan to my life.. so i am not wishing for a husband.. hehe:) if someone is designed to come, that is in his time.. but if i am destined to be single for the rest of my days on earth, so be it..
i am also not wishing for material things.. money.. position.. power..
there is one wish i have i my mind for the last five months.. find regie.. and get him to my custody.. but all i could do for this wish is pray..
and lastly i just want to depend myself to those who claimed they know me but know nothing about me.. i knew there are people who dislike me and even hate me.. because i usually choose to breathe in my own world.. my silence doesn't mean i am against anybody.. i am silent because that's me.. instead of hating me, why not try to be friends with me, who knows, nobody knows, we'll be the best..
hindi ko alam ano bang sense ng mga 'to.. i wanted to make something na pwedeng maging tribute sa lahat pero hindi ko alam pa'no gagawin..
maraming salamat sa mga taong nakakakita sa 'kin.. i mean, 'yung nakikita ang sense ng existence ko.. lahat ng bagay about me is very ordinary but i am very contented.. and i guess that's the important thing i could share.. be happy for what you have and for who you are.. love yourself.. and don't give up..
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