goodbye..

i am not feeling well because of so many things that i can't fix..
my lesson plan is not updated..
i can't teach my pupils well because i'm always unprepared..
reading test is near but i doubt if they will pass it..
kasalanan ko na naman..

tapos i can't find the winamp list in the computer i am using in sls..
then one of them is not working..

i can't clean my room, it is very messy..
eveythings is in chaos.. pati ako..

i don't know if i can still survive tomorrow..

i thought i was strong.. but i was wrong.. hindi ako ganon..
what's happening to me now?

i want to quit in teaching and go somewhere else to find myself..

teaching is really not for me..

i passed the board exam that made me a licensed teacher but am i really a teacher in the real sense?

i know i am not..
because my heart beats in different way..

i can't be effective because i can't give my 100%..

i don't belong on this field.. i need to get away..

maybe, by december or january.. i will be leaving cabanatuan and once it happened, i promise not to come back anymore..
wala ng dahilan para mag-stay pa 'ko dito.. hindi ako para dito.. at ayoko ng makita ang sarili ko dito kahit kailan..