I'M BAD

i knew it's not right to compare or expect someone to become somebody else because it's what you want... hays! what i would do to make him realize  that i am wrong for him.. i made lies... i slammed the door.. and so, am i happy now?

16th Council-Wide Jamborette

 POWERPUFF GIRLS:)

 with Mam Juday:)

 Jessa and Vany:)

 Mga ABUNAS:)

 MORAL SUPPORT, supot!!! lol:)

BLOCKED

i know it's all my fault.. mali nga ako... i am being honest but he still pretends nothing's wrong... everything's not fine between us... and i don't care at all...

GLOW IN THE DARK lol:)

the controversial teddy hehe:)

Ecopark at Gabaldon, Nueva Ecija

STAR

it was just a simple gesture from a kid, but it means so much to me...

AT BAKET?!

hindi ko nga alam kung pa'no magrereact sa nabasa ko... magagalit ba 'ko? maaawa? makikisimpatya? aaminin kong gusto ko ng kausap tungkol sa bagay na 'to... gusto ko ng kakampi... pero kanino ako magsusumbong? sa pulis? pulis si erpat! haha:) hindi yata ako naging sumbungera sa buong buhay ko... alin lang naman sa dalawa ang ginagawa ko sa mga ganitong pagkakataon, nag-iingay ako o nananahimik ako... pero kung mag-iingay ako, sa anong dahilan? kung mananahimik ako, ano ang idadahilan ko?

sa totoo lang, isa lang ang ginagawa ko sa ngayon, ang isiping saling-pusa lang naman ako sa buhay nila.. iniisip kong hindi din naman sila magtatagal sa buhay ko.. hindi sila habang buhay na nand'yan... pagod na siguro ako... kaya hindi na ako umaasa... at siguro nga, hindi ko naman sila kailangan talaga, masaya naman ako kahit wala sila...

Ako at ang Alien:)

 Buttercup and Bubbles

DESPEDIDA ni SIR JOMS:)

"Todays beautiful moments are tomorrows beautiful memories..."

Arafes Le Cuisine, Kapt. Pepe

mamimiss mo sir joms ang mga abunas ng ACA:)

with my tita josie

 Continuation hehe:)

sa apartment nila Ma'am Judy

THINKING...

how can i break the bridge when we get there? haha! baliw ba? desperate to get out? eh ano nga! lol:) joking aside, after reading all the old messages of j.t. i decided to clear my mind... that's what i do when some things are disturbing me and i can't make a decision...

nobody knows what's running here in my head... i could write about my heartaches and disappointments here but there are still things deeper than that about me that i never let anyone see... kahit lasingin mo pa 'ko! hehe... ewan ko why i prefer to preserve them to myself... siguro they are the only portion i get strength from to balance things in my world when i could no longer find a reason to hope... amen!

tsk.. tsk.. almost 1am na gising pa din ako... parang walang klase bukas, adik! ano pa man 'tong kabaliwan na 'to, bukas ko na lang ulit itutuloy... wala ng epekto 'yung isang litrong softdrinks na ininom ko hehe, inaantok na 'ko... goodnight:)

NOT ME!

what the heck crossed into my head to show this pic to the whole world? huh! nothing! do i look like a gangster like what von commented on his status? haha!  oh, why? would this make me less respectable because i am an educator? this pic shows life... the simplicity of it... the cause... the effect... the moment that you give yourself the freedom to do anything you want... anything that makes you happy... agree?

anyway, i do drink, a lot, but i don't smoke... i've tried, once, and it was six years ago if i am not mistaken... i didn't enjoy the feeling so i never dared to do it again... so the cigarette was only intended for prop sa pictorial... haha! wala, trip lang... peace!

RESTORE?

it's saturday and i am not in the mood to go out because of the monthly happening to us girls.. i received a text from an unknown number and realized how inconsiderate i have been lately...

i made a cup of coffee and sat on our divan... i stared mom's garden and reflect on the cracks with my connection to some people close to me... there were text messages, calls, PMs, offline messages and even chats in fb that i didn't bother to answer.. maybe, i was too busy with carpet visitation, pressured with the expectations from the party of you know, or too enjoying my life with the new circle i have found, and i have no time to think of them... and care about them... didn't notice i lost my old friends already... i took for granted my relationships with them...

i want to say i'm sorry but that won't fix the damages i know... and i also know that i am not a lost for them... they could still live happily even without me... i don't want to say goodbye 'cause in my heart, they will forever have their space... we just need to face the reality that it's different now... should i say, i've changed? maybe, this is one of spices about growing old, getting through the way with new world and new self...

that's it... that's all i want to say...

but hey, when everything else fails in my life, i am assured i have a home and a loving dog, that i could embrace... and it's more than enough for me to be okay....

ILLEGAL ASSEMBLY

parang ako yata 'yon ah wahaha... nung nag-surrender kami ng mga envelope sa comelec, ibinagsak ko isa-isa sa harap nung staff, tapos sabi ko, ANO PANG KAILANGAN MO? sabi wala na... inilabas ko nga 'yung plastik na pinaglagyan nung pang-thumbmark at indelible, 'eto pa kako, hindi tinanggap... sabi ko, HINDI KAYO MARUNONG SUMUNOD SA GUIDELINES, NAKALAGAY SA GUIDELINES IBABALIK 'TO AH! nagkamot na lang sa ulo 'yung staff... hehehe... adik ba?

BIRTHDAY NI MA'AM JUDY... TOSS!

THE ART OF DRINKING hehehe:)

san carlos, aliga, nueva ecjia

;(

alam kong nang-aasar lang si nimrod na baka umiyak ako kanina... kung sigurong alam niya o nila ano man ang nandito sa loob ko, baka umiyak nga ako... pero itatago ko na lang ano man 'yon... wala 'to... lilipas din 'to...

BIGGEST MISTAKE

now that i've learned to forgive, there would never be room for regrets.. like the other turning point in my life, i am considering it as a learning experience... i am more at peace to leave it on that way... besides even if that person caused a huge damage inside me, i could never forget the way he made my life different... the way i've been happy in his arms...

sometimes, loving may not go the way we want it, but at least we are given a chance to share our life with other people... it may be devastating... it may be distressing... because it is the only we can completely grasp its meaning... its purpose... and its consequence...

it must be the most painful thing that ever happened to me, but he will always be special to me for once in my life, i have loved him so much... and now, i want a total closure about us... not because i want to forget him... because i have to.. to set myself free... i want to be able to love again... be happy again... without wondering about him anymore...

so this is it... really it... goodbye, pare...

BLAME IT ON THE WEATHERMAN

you had me at my best and you chose to break my heart....