RESTORE?

it's saturday and i am not in the mood to go out because of the monthly happening to us girls.. i received a text from an unknown number and realized how inconsiderate i have been lately...

i made a cup of coffee and sat on our divan... i stared mom's garden and reflect on the cracks with my connection to some people close to me... there were text messages, calls, PMs, offline messages and even chats in fb that i didn't bother to answer.. maybe, i was too busy with carpet visitation, pressured with the expectations from the party of you know, or too enjoying my life with the new circle i have found, and i have no time to think of them... and care about them... didn't notice i lost my old friends already... i took for granted my relationships with them...

i want to say i'm sorry but that won't fix the damages i know... and i also know that i am not a lost for them... they could still live happily even without me... i don't want to say goodbye 'cause in my heart, they will forever have their space... we just need to face the reality that it's different now... should i say, i've changed? maybe, this is one of spices about growing old, getting through the way with new world and new self...

that's it... that's all i want to say...

but hey, when everything else fails in my life, i am assured i have a home and a loving dog, that i could embrace... and it's more than enough for me to be okay....