Be Happy

Last night, someone texted me that he is not happy, and he said he will not be happy, ever.. I am wondering, what do we wish to get in our life for us to say that we are happy? How much money we dream to earn to be happy? Are we really alone? Don’t we have a family? friends? we don’t do well in our job? we reach zero balance? we are sick? we think we are just a mess? we feel we are hopeless?

I asked one of my friends, "lagi akong talo, hindi ba pwedeng kahit minsan manalo naman ako?" I asked this to test his sympathy, hehe: ) Salamat kaibigan.. for raising my spirit up..

I cannot recall where I read this, HAPPINESS is the state of contentment and peace of mind.. Actually, I am always on the down side, always the loser, but in every step I have taken in my life, I have my family with me, I have my friends, I have God.. It is not true that we can never be happy in this life.. We can’t have everything we want, but we can still live our life.. we can be happy, in any way, anywhere..

After that distressing situation in NEDH’s ER, I am really thankful that God had given me another chance to continue my life.. I made a joke, I was born again hehe: )

I just laugh whenever Dexter text me as if I am one of the Mabikas class.. PNPA, PPSC and the rest along with my journey to get there, will always be a great part of me.. Without those attempts I have made and thwarts I have gone, I will not be the person that I am today.. Honestly, I wanted to be the top honor of this class hehe, ilusyon lang: ) so I will be able to speak in front of many people and let them know that behind this dream, is a daughter who loves her parents so much.. and all that this daughter wishes to do in her life is make her parents proud.. But as I’ve said, I will only carry this dream to my memory ‘til the end..

I cannot force the circumstance to put me in the rank.. No matter many times I try to turn away from where I am right now, I always end up staying here.. So I made a decision to move forward.. I will continue my masteral this coming school year.. no choice of school yet, but it is only in our city.. If my sched will allow me, I will enroll the advance or maybe it is better to enroll again the basic autocad, for skill and certificate purposes hehe: ).. I know you’ll be surprised to read this, I am now open to the possibility of working overseas.. astig, ‘di ba? why not? I want to take pictures in different places, experience to live in different cultures, have many friends in different nations..

I will also devote some of my time following the path of Kuya Eliezer in NGO’s.. My classmates in CLP before had inspired me so much with their advocacies.. Their influence is worthy to share.. I think of them when I am being unreasonable, because my feelings get moderated.. I can manage to balance my emotions when I am reminded of how good they are to other people.. Their compassion is remarkable.. I want to be like them when I reach their age.. I want to be an inspiration, too, to the young people who will touch my life someday..

All these things that I am working to achieve give me the opportunity to live the most of my life.. because we owe to ourselves the choice to be happy.. I am a frustrated cadet of Philippine National Police Academy, but my life didn’t stop there.. I continue my life on the other form of service to the people, as my sister told me, to the nobler one, in teaching.. I am brokenhearted, but my heart still beats.. I am still alive in spite of the pain.. After all, it encourages me to be a better teacher..

To end this post, whenever I feel down, lost and nothing, I always remember V's message when Tatay Tacio passed away, "girl, why don’t you try Jesus?"

Whatever things that bother us, let us put them in the hands of the one who will never get tired to carry them for us.. try Jesus..

to be happy is not a chance, it is your choice..

Choose to be happy with God..