i was crying last night... because someone told me that i am KAWAWA... for loving a wrong man... i cried because nobody really sees what's inside me... nobody knew the pain..
i have made lies to hide something to everybody... part of learning to let go... sorry, lying is the only way i see to get myself at the acceptance level and move forward...
i couldn't help remembered every heartbreak that i've gone through... i reflected... i questioned god... i admitted my mistakes... i considered the purpose for everything... i cried so hard... and freed myself finally... i asked god's forgiveness and dared him to make me fall in love again and learn to trust again... i smiled as i fell asleep and woke up with a clear heart that is ready to face the whole world with a new goal--BE HAPPY.. for whatever that had been... and whatever will be, let it be...
inspite of my blurriness, i look at this life at the more brighter sides now...
it's enough for me that at least---
...one of the billion people in the world made me smile today...
...one of them commended my hard work...
...one of them trusted my capability...
...one of them showed concern...
...one of them threw jokes on me and laughed with me...
...one of them made me mad..
...one of them hated me and frowned because of me...
...one of them shared the same dream, the same opinion...
...one of them asked my help...
...one of them helped me...
...one of them prayed with me..
...one of them texted me...
...one of them liked my wall post in fb..
...one of them chat me..
...one of them tagged me a photo...
...one of them sent me a gift in cityville..
...one of them wanted to make me feel i am special...
all those things that happened to me today are just proofs that there are people out there who help me make a day each day i am still alive.. hindi ako kawawa...
we all have our own perspectives to things and people around us... and the choice is still ours to choose whether to be happy or not, to live or not... and let god be your one and only strength all throughout your journey...
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