BROKENHEARTED ME

A million miracles could never stop the pain or put all the pieces together again..

only mam charlote and sir nimrod have an idea on who makes me feel bad lately.. he did really affect my health a lot.. especially for the last two months.. sometimes i text ate shane about this, but most of the time, i just denied this to myself.. there were nights i never sleep.. there were so many times i just pretend to be fine.. i focused on my job to the point i forgot to give myself some time to relax.. because i don't want to entertain him in my head.. i don't want him in my life anymore.. but it is not that easy to delete someone in your life.. someone you have adored the most in your life..

i don't know how long i would be like this.. i surrender this fight long time ago but no matter how many times i have tried to let go, i just couldn't get there completely..

i hate to talk about this again.. over and over again.. me, brokenhearted?.. unbelievable, isn't it? I know it's hard to believe that i am suffering a feeling of hopelessness at this point.. i couldn't express this.. it's not because i am reluctant to admit that i am emotionally down.. i really don't know how i would cry at this weakest moment.. i also don't know how i would let my friends know that i need them.. sir archie, ayie, jr, V and the others whom i know can make me feel alright.. gusto kong umiyak, ang sakit-sakit na kasi.. kahit pala ga'no ako katapang, hindi ko pala kayang mag-isa ngayon.. i need a friend.. i need a hug.. i need someone who will make me feel that everything will be fine.. that i will be fine, one day, someday..