i got 12 miscalls.. didn't hear my phone was ringing 'cause i often left it in my room when i'm busy-busyhan... charing! okay confess, even if i heard it, i wouldn't answer it either... hmpp... the last ring they made, i intentionally ignored... what for? hmpp, i know party girl will nag me if she would learn about this... [boto ang lola mo].. so cruel of me... i did it for one reason, i give up...
i thank them for their kindness to me... for welcoming me in their family in spite of the undeclared status with you know... it's just that i can't be the person who would be a part of their life forever... i know i am wrong for letting this come this far... i just want to be sure if i could learn to accept that he must be my fate... maybe some things are not that easy to embrace especially if you don't get the contentment that you wish to achieve.. i wasn't joking when i ask him to let me go... after all, it's what i really wish from him... all this time, instead of learning to love him, he is becoming a burden to me... keeping him doesn't make me happy, it makes me feel guilty as we stay connected to each other, longer...
i'm sorry to say all these... i know it hurts... but i can't lie to myself... you would think i am being unfair with him, sort of... but life's like that, now i am the one who is causing the injury to other people.. and the only way i could return the favor he had done for taking the chance of loving me is to set him free... he is a good person, it doesn't feel good to hurt him, it feels better... 'cause i know he doesn't deserve me.. he deserves to be happy with someone who will love him sincerely... and i know, someday, he'll thank me for doing this...
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