My first year in public, I received a red rose from Jelie Bituin Ingaran. Last year, it was Ervin Jay Pernites who gave me a small heart in stick..
It is a toxic month because of the forms and reports we need to accomplish and my desire to file an app to Olivas next week adds pressure.. I wouldn’t be aware that it is two days away if Maricar Hipolito didn’t bother to give me a present and there was a note “SALAMAT SA MATIYAGANG PAGTUTURO”.. It feels good, knowing that there is someone, even a kid, who recognizes my perseverance to help young people improve their lives.. Unconsciously I looked at the ceiling during recess and stared at the decoration I hanged in the middle.. For 23 years of my life, there is no heart’s day that I have a date.. Always on the pretending side, teasing some friends for sopas stuff to ease the coldness of being loveless during this season..
I am single.. okay ng ganyan ang sabihin ko kaysa BROKEN HEARTED ako.. I am not complaining.. I am just making a statement that it’s always an ordinary day for me.. Maybe, someday, all of the Valentine’s day will be different.. Niyayabangan kasi ako ng isang kaibigan that he is out of the empty list.. Well, I am happy for him.. GO! As I have said to him, SWERTIHAN LANG ‘YAN.. haha: ) PANA-PANAHON..
Why would I long for something, or should I say SOMEONE, if I am still not ready in all aspects to commit myself, again? I don’t want to be unfair to someone if I would enter to a relationship where I cannot give myself fully..I don’t want to compromise myself to a relationship just to avoid the pambabatikos to my status.. masabi lang ba na may lovelife..
It will be alright getting near to the last trip.. After all, I am not NBSZ.. I am just SINGLE, for now.. Maybe, being in a relationship makes life happier.. But at this point, it’s enough that I am just happy.. My mind is focused on my dream and family.. When I am done with all the HAVE TOs I need to fulfill for them, expect to receive an invi to my MILITARY WEDDING:) When that day comes, each VALENTINE’S DAY will be my turn.. No more question marks and justifications.. hehe:)
Wish me the BEST..
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