YOU'RE IN LOVE;(

Sometimes,
even if a woman no longer wants you in her arms,
she wants you in her heart.
-Langston Hughes

I have been counting the days I would see him again.. Something inside me tells me what’s the point, but there is a part of me that persists in doing so.. I should stop loving him knowing that someone else is already filling my space I once had in his life.. If I would pretend that it doesn’t affect me, I will only hurt myself more.. Because the truth is, it does break my heart each day.. I am tough, I guess, I am not that easy to shake, but when it comes to him, I get easily down, I get to the weakest level that I could only sit and cry silently in desperation to stop all the feelings I have for him.. My mind pushes me to move on but my heart fights, it never wanted to let go..

All these years, I have seen different men, better men, best men, but it never even crossed in my head to catch one of them.. Because deep inside me, I knew who I wish to hold.. The man who doesn’t need me anymore, or it is right to say, who doesn’t love me at all..

Only two right people who love each other have the privilege to live a life together forever.. Love is not about one heart that beats for two lives.. It last only a while.. Two right persons should carry a mutual even if not an equal emotion in their hearts to share one journey all the way.. If one heart gets weak, the other heart would still do its part.. If only one heart loves, and it gets tired, whose heart do you think would still keep the ride going?

I have given my part to save us.. I have done my bravest move.. In the end, it’s only me who wanted to fight for it.. It was unfair for both of us to keep on trying to work things out.. Even if he means the whole world to me, I would be happier to see him happy with the one he could love and who could love him more than I do..

Love doesn’t mean you’re sorry.. I am not sorry.. Loving may not always end up like the fairy tales do but it is still best that it happened to me than it never happens even just once in my one and only life..

Maybe, I still love him.. I still hope that somehow, I've got a space in his heart.. But a friend is right WAKE UP! WAKE UP! He's in love, not with you..

Better, let go, let God.. as Stit told me, someday, someone will come who would treat me right and love me back..

Open the door and come in
I'm so glad to see you my friend
Don't know how long it has been
Having those feelings again.

And now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be

[Chorus:]
Aah, my love, Aah
You're in love
That's the way
It should be
'Cause I want you to be happy
You're in love
And I know
That you're not in love with me
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love

Sometimes it's hard to believe
That you're never coming back to me
I've had this dream that you'd always be by my side
Oh I could have died.

But now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free.
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be

[Chorus]

I tried to find you but you were so far away
I was praying that fate would bring you back to me
Someday, someday, someday... Ooh, you're in love

Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love